Ticket Lost.

It's been a week. I tried to figured out where is my KLM flight ticket to Jakarta. I end up today with the fact that i miss it somehow. it should be somewhere, but i dont know where it is. i lost it. meaning ? i am not going home that soon ;D

think about it

Happy = Give More, Expect Less.

A Perfect Saturday

September 19th. Saturday. 23 degrees, sunny and very warm. Just a perfect weather for Saturday. I woke up at around 10am after fall asleep again since around 6am after sahur this morning. Dishwashing, taking a shower then go to the city center to meet a friend from Den Haag. Today is weird. Since a week ago, Amsterdam got an average temperature of around 15 in the afternoon. and suddenly today, it got 23, which is very warm. i even don't need to put my jacket while riding my bike to the city center.

After i met Laras at Ledseplein, i went to two of my favorite english bookstores at Spui centrum. American Book Center at Spui 12, and Waterstone's at Kalvestraat 152. Those stores are housed in very nice buildings, both of them have 3 floors. Very nice ambience, really cozy, and have tremendous collection. Those store seem like to be my favorite spot for the next following years. ;) Today i bought "High Fidelity" by Nick Hornby. It seems like fun, light, and entertaining. Recently, I prefer that kind of book instead of my typical book of business, economy, and what so ever it is.

By the time i exit the American Book Center at Spui and walked to Kalverstraat, i suddenly attracted by the totally happy music i heard from the street. It was an old man with his big music machine ! The music it produced is really happy, unique and pumped up my mood. It is very cheering, though. I gave him EUR 1, and he replied with very big smile. I am happy. This very city is exciting, lively. Amsterdam got its own vibe in its own way. And i can say, i start to fall into it. i start enjoying Europe.

Moreover, tomorrow is Idul Fitri ! I will miss my mother, siblings and the rest of the family by tomorrow. And of course, i will miss the food also. Although this is my very first time having Idul Fitri away from home, it is still, Idul Fitri.. Let's Celebrate !

It is Just Fine.

Anda pernah ditolak ?

Saya jelas pernah..

Karena saya laki-laki,

Kalau "menolak" itu kerjanya perempuan..

Well, i have something to be spilled out of my mind about this "being rejected issue".

I several times saw couples of my friend being really down after being rejected by some particular girls. Then i started questioning, why are he so down after that brave moment. He replied "I felt somehow, embarrassed.." Then i continued "Why you felt embarrassed ?". He carry on "I don't know, i just felt somehow want to disappear for the time being. I really like this girl, but she refuse me.."

Okay. I try to understand his circumstances, as well. I know that it is not easy to face that. But, i have my own thoughts about this particular issue.

According to me, there is nothing wrong with being, let say, rejected. Since there's nothing wrong to confessing your feeling toward someone, and there's also nothing wrong with not having the same feeling towards someone.

The message is, for you boys, it is totally fine to confess that you like or love a girl. On the other hand, for you girls, it is also totally fine to say to him that you are not feeling the same way.

Do i have make it clear ?

Moreover, i also imagine that, asking a girl to be your girlfriend or asking her to have a relationship with you is like asking somebody to go picnic with you. First, you have to tell her where you'll go. Then try explain to her, what's the feature of that place. If it is a park, then why make this park special. And if it is beach, then explain to her why you should go to that beach. What's this picnic is all about. etc. But at the end, she got her full right to choose. Whether she want to go with you or not. Am i right ? Maybe she got somewhere else to go or something else to do.

So, the point is, you already have a courage and full efforts to ask her to go with you. In spite the fact she decided to not going, then it is just fine. Totally fine, right ? You have do your best efforts trying to convey your purposes, you already gather totally enough courage to confess it, and most importantly, you've been honest to yourself. In fact she's got her own choice, her own preference, her own decision, you can't push it. You sell it your dream, and she doesn't want to buy it, then it is just okay. You still can sell it to another person who maybe more interested and sharing the same dream with you.

The bottom line is, being rejected is not a moment of embarrassment, it's a moment of pride.

Nyoman Aditya Prakasa

Dit, cepet banget sih perginya..
gue kaget pas kemaren malem dikabarin lo masuk rumah sakit karena kecelakaan mobil.
dan sempet ga percaya pas tadi pagi dikabarin lo udah ga ada.

emang kita ga terlalu deket sih ya dit,
tapi gue inget kita pernah jalan bareng ke PIM sama Pamung sama Rangga Gandina

lo salah satu orang paling ramah yang pernah gue kenal dit. suer.
tiap ketemu orang di koridor kampus, pasti lo tegor..
dan yang bikin special buat gue, lo afal nama nama panjang gue,
dan selalu nyapa gue dengan nama belakang gue
"Hoi Nindito.."
jarang banget dit temen gue yang nyapa gue dengan manggil nama belakang gue,
malah mungkin cuma elo di kampus..

sayang kita ga sempet ngobrol sebelom gue berangkat kesini,
tapi waktu itu kan gue udah kasih tau gue mau pindah ke belanda.

kecepetan dit,
umur kita baru 20
tapi gue tau lo orang baik, makanya Tuhan mau buru-buru ketemu lo.
tenang dit, ini Ramadhan.. Lo pasti dapet tempat enak disana.

sekali lagi Tuhan kasih liat ke gue kalo takdir emang ga bisa ditolak,
even cuma satu detik pun.
ga bisa lebih lambat satu detik, dan juga ga bisa lebih cepet satu detik.
tua, muda, sama aja.
dimana aja, kapan aja.

sori gue ga bisa ikutan ngelayat,
nanti kalo gue liburan ke jakarta, gue bakal ziarah ke makam lo.

selamat jalan dit,
Alloh SWT pasti tau apa yang terbaik buat kita semua.

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with my deepest condelesence for Nyoman Aditya Prakasa and his family members,

Arif Nindito.

Years of Gentleman

Sky is still so grey this morning, and I am still a teenager by the time i write this. Yes, i am still 19. I just wanna share some thought in my head about last few months of my life. I wanna share my thoughts about my current issues and also maybe few about the future.

The consequences of being a type-7 person for me is that you can't stop thinking about your life, your dream and your future. Some people might say it is silly, but for me, i found it as the thing that make me alive. Thinking, dreaming, making a plan, then stick to it, is already in my nerves since i was a junior-high-schooler.

I consider my self as a person who having a very high level of self-serving bias. That according to my psychology class' professor, is healthy for me.

The last few months was quite rough, let say. After i received my acceptance letter, I have to totally struggle to past the Cost Accounting class in the short semester as my last attempt to make my transfer. I also have to undergone some financial process issues in my family regarding the funding of my future study. And yes of course, i undergone those few last feel-quite-blue days before i depart here.

Well, finally i am here right now. I finally, and again, living what i've been planned. And this very moment of life has been a quantum leap in my life history.

I am finally took a full control of my life, now.

Although in some sort it is not always be that nice, but most of the times, yes it is nice to have a full control of you life with you. This circumstance is always followed by one word; RESPONSIBILITY.

Once you gain a full control of our life, you have to always bear in mind that you have to be responsible with it. You should carry a huge amount of responsibility that you can pay to your stakeholders. You should be able to be responsible for every decision you make, regardless on what condition you made that decision, at the end, you have to be responsible for your call, anyway.

As i said, you should be able to be responsible to your stakeholders. In case of me, i have to be responsible for my decision to studying abroad that cost my parents lot of money. I have to be responsible to my study, to my parents, to my life, and more importantly, i have to be responsible to God. God already gave me a although not perfect, a wonderful life. God also give Priceless worth of health. And last but not least, God also already gave me, although not that brilliant, a working mindset.

There is no reason to not be really grateful. And there is also no reason to run away from the responsibilities i have to carry on. I already made my call, then i will be fully responsible for it. This is what i called as The Years of Gentleman.

Puisi Malam Ini

Malam ini Amsterdam hujan lebat
Suhu langsung berhianat turun tak bersahabat
Menggigil di tepi jalan negeri rantau
Ibu, aku rindu.

14 Ramadhan 1430 H / September 4th 2009.
Damrak, Amsterdam Centrum.

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Atas nama angin dingin laut utara,

Arif Nindito

When the Sky is Grey

What a shitty weather that Amsterdam has today. It's a catastrophic combination of pouring rain, heavy wind blow, and sun light. What kind of weather they're having here. According to accuweather.com which I always check every morning, the temperature for today is 15 degrees (highest) and 11 degrees (lowest). I guess it would be another particular student life day of mine.

I started my day by woke up late. I just skipped the shower and directly go to class by bus and metro instead of bike. The earliest class here starts at 9.00 a.m, not like in Depok where the morning class usually start at 8.00 a.m (that's better actually). The thing is, the latest class here finish at 8.00 pm, whereas in Depok, the latest class i guess finish on 6.30 or 7 pm, something like that (this one is not good).

After the class, i planned to go to the Student Information Center which is apart from my faculty in Roetersstraat. I tried to take a walk, but it seems to cold for me to continue my journey since it is raining. Then I initiated to take the metro (subway) from Waterlooplein to Neiuwmarkt. It works, basically. But, after i got off the Niuewmarkt station, i have to go to the direction that i thought i knew. Again, i have to stop by in front of a kiosk because the fcuking rain. All i wore today is just a polo shirt and my became-favorite all season jacket. Jeans and a pair of white Converse. I walked through some narrow street and i got a bit lost. Guess where i've been ? Yes, it's redlights. Shit. It is 11.30 in the middle of the day, it is cold outside, and i got lost in redlights ! perfect. There are already some girls trying to market themselves in this very early and rainy afternoon ! Moreover, of course, the smell of marijuana is always around the redlights.

After i changed my appointment with the city's government regarding to my residence permit, i should go to Central Station to take the bus home. I am just too lazy and too miserly to spend an Euro to go by tram to central. In fact, it is not that far, by the way. Therefore, i have to bear the consequence of getting wet because of the rain is came again. WTF ! It is raining, stop, sun light, raining again, heavy wind blow, raining again, sun light again, and raining again. Oh my God, this city is having odd weather as they said on the Cultureshock! book i read. This time is no mercy, i am freezing. My jeans is wet, my shoe and shocks is wet, and of course, my nose it totally wet. I would like to buy an umbrella, and i saw people having problem with theirs, then i thought that in these days, there is no such good enough umbrella to bear the wind.

In spite of the odd weather, i started to fall in love with the city. It is just a perfect combination of urban living and the settings of classical and historical city of Amsterdam. The city is living. Street performance in Dam Square and Museumplein, fresh flower seller in the sidewalks, hot coffee smell in pedestrian, buzzing bicycle in the street, it is totally nice in its own fashion. I went inside two bookstores and two shopping center on my way back home just to avoid the rain. I took the bus, and by the time i get off the bus, yes, it is raining again.

That's the story of my day for today. How's yours ?