The Poker of Love.

I just heard a story from one of my best friend about his current love life. He is currently in a feeling toward a girl who already got a boyfriend. Dilemmatic, maybe. But one thing. He said :

"Sometimes, girls can play very nice in this game. They don't want to raise the call, they don't want to fold it neither. They just want to check it in the bet."

Sounds good, right ? I call it as The Poker of Love.

Today's Sushi

This morning was a bit messy. I got a class to attend on 9 AM this morning, but the fact is that i went to the bar last night until about 1 AM to have a chat with one of my Bulgarian friend, Nikolay. I was not late, but the consequence is that i was not be able to have my breakfast before go to class.

I had Introduction to Management Research, this morning. The class discussion was a bit lame. I was expecting something "more mature" comments from my Ducth fellows in my class. In spite the fact that some of them are doing pre-master program, sometimes, i found that their comments was too lame. like a kindergarten pupils.

Of course i was starving during the class. I paddled my bike relatively fast on my way back home. Although the sun was finally made to show up after two messed up days of raining, it was a bit cold today. I hit the Albert Hijn, restocking my fridge with some usual groceries. Moreover, i also bought sushi there. It cost me like 8 Euros.

I wrote this post while having my sushi. You know what, the taste was not good. The rice is lack of commitment ;D and the fish is not really fresh. But what can i expect from an 8 Euros supermarket's sushi ? nothing. It makes me miss the time i spent with my friends in one of the most popular sushi restaurant in my hometown, Jakarta. Yes, it was Sushi Tei. I missing the moment i spent with you there, guys.

Indeed, i miss the sushi. But, i miss the moment more than i miss the sushi ;(

Looking to that picture, then you will found out that i don't have any chopstick at my house here. Then i enjoying my crappy sushi today with PENCILS !

Nyoman Aditya Prakasa

Dit, cepet banget sih perginya..
gue kaget pas kemaren malem dikabarin lo masuk rumah sakit karena kecelakaan mobil.
dan sempet ga percaya pas tadi pagi dikabarin lo udah ga ada.

emang kita ga terlalu deket sih ya dit,
tapi gue inget kita pernah jalan bareng ke PIM sama Pamung sama Rangga Gandina

lo salah satu orang paling ramah yang pernah gue kenal dit. suer.
tiap ketemu orang di koridor kampus, pasti lo tegor..
dan yang bikin special buat gue, lo afal nama nama panjang gue,
dan selalu nyapa gue dengan nama belakang gue
"Hoi Nindito.."
jarang banget dit temen gue yang nyapa gue dengan manggil nama belakang gue,
malah mungkin cuma elo di kampus..

sayang kita ga sempet ngobrol sebelom gue berangkat kesini,
tapi waktu itu kan gue udah kasih tau gue mau pindah ke belanda.

kecepetan dit,
umur kita baru 20
tapi gue tau lo orang baik, makanya Tuhan mau buru-buru ketemu lo.
tenang dit, ini Ramadhan.. Lo pasti dapet tempat enak disana.

sekali lagi Tuhan kasih liat ke gue kalo takdir emang ga bisa ditolak,
even cuma satu detik pun.
ga bisa lebih lambat satu detik, dan juga ga bisa lebih cepet satu detik.
tua, muda, sama aja.
dimana aja, kapan aja.

sori gue ga bisa ikutan ngelayat,
nanti kalo gue liburan ke jakarta, gue bakal ziarah ke makam lo.

selamat jalan dit,
Alloh SWT pasti tau apa yang terbaik buat kita semua.

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with my deepest condelesence for Nyoman Aditya Prakasa and his family members,

Arif Nindito.

Nasih Anak Rantau - Chapter 1

Last night was my first night staying at my dorm room. And this very morning is my first ever sahur being alone. I get used being away from home during my time in Depok, but, at least during Ramadhan, i always have friends to go sahur together. On this point, i miss Zilqi and Budi so much ;D

Moreover, last night, i finally met my flat-mate. He is an Italian, named Daniele. And guess what, he cook. Great right ? He told me that almost Italians can cook. He seems nice, not so messy with things, and tidy enough. Well, i assume that he is as tidy as me ;P

This very morning i just put some pre-cooked rice and semur daging to the microwave. Waiting like five minutes, then i ready to eat. Sitting alone at the dinner table while looking a cruise ship passing by in the front of my window. I enjoyed with to the fullest. Although it would be a lot better if i have my mother, siblings or friends here.. Haha..

D-1

I opened my eyes this morning at around 7.30AM, then i recognized that i only had about five hours of sleep. Last night, i went out with few best friends from high school to a movie to watch Pelham 123 then continued with some late night conversations.

I will depart by tomorrow. And by the time i woke up this morning, i realized how much i love my current life. For sure, my life isn't perfect. Though, i can say that i really enjoy every single pieces of my life recently. Then i realized how lovely it feels to have a loving-although-not-perfect family. A superb mother, really hard working father, unique siblings, great-and-supportive friends, challenging-and-dynamic study environment of FEUI, relatively cheap living expense in Depok, and not necessarily say the decent facilities given. I think it is save for me to say that i feel content with my life and i think it's enough for now. It is my comfort zone.

Then the question raised is that, "why bother to move, brother ?". Sometimes i also rose this basic question to my self. Why bother to leave if you already contented with your current life condition ? sometimes, i had no answer. but most of the time i answered it with "to be better".

Therefore, the definition on "be better" may vary from person to person. We could be better in any aspects of our life. Then, let's scrutinize it to the phrase of "a better future". How do you define "a better future" ? does it means being wealthier, smarter, happier or what ?

With no intentions of being cocky (although it still sounds cocky), Faculty of Economics - University of Indonesia already promised me more than just a decent future of life. And i thought it already offered me more than what does it takes to succeed in the jungle of Indonesian economic and business community. It's like a passport to excel for some reason.

It's a mini Harvard of Indonesia.

Not necessarily saying the magical-and-somehow-collusive connections of the yellow jackets thingy. But yes, it really works, fellas. To be more cocky, let me share you some potential highlights of FEUI. We have both international and national superb caliber of networks. You'll never know who the hell would standing in the front of your class as the lecturer.

He/she could be a minister, businessman, entrepreneur, economist, statistician, mathematician, or even a financial market bastard.

the same thing applies for your fellow friends. You'll never know who they would be in the next five years. So basically, FEUI is a perfect networking field for me.

Then most of you including me will ask, "hey fella, with those good damn things in ur life, aren't you should think that's enough ?". It maybe yes, maybe no. I don't want to stay in my comfort zone for too long. Since i believed that people who never leave their comfort zone would never succeed. So, it's all about leaving your comfort zone. Well, it is also a part of a bigger system malfunction that effect my life. Why ? maybe i can say that if Universitas Indonesia (UI) that almost every indonesian citizens be proud of is ranked among world's top 50 universities, then i don't have to bother to take off my ass abroad. As i cockily elaborated, FEUI already gives me more than what does it takes to succeed. at least, locally.

But most of the times, people are never satisfied. We were born with needs, wants, obsessions. And especially for me, i was born with dreams.

Yes dude, it's dreams that take me to where i've been right now. As Anis Baswedan PhD, said as his life philosophy, "I have a dream, and I share my dream". It perfectly suits me. Men are measures by what he dreams of. For me, dreaming is self-actualizing. There is no boundaries to dream.

To wrap up, i'm moving because of four reasons. First, i have to leave my comfort zone. Second, i am about to chase my dream. Third, i am actualizing my self. And fourth, yes, i am not enough, yet. Being competent locally is not enough for the prudent-and-cocky Arif Nindito. I want to compete globally. And the only way to do so is by going global.

Studying abroad will never promised you a happier life. Although maybe, just maybe, a more rewarding income. Being happy is not necessarily the same as being wealthy. It depends on what values you hold. So many people are damn rich but they are not happy.

Studying abroad, ideally, would gives you more holistic perspectives. It will shape the way you see things that finally leads to more knowledges. And believe it or not, knowledge leads to power. But once again it depends on the person. Only people who willing to learn will learn, otherwise, they will never actually learn although they seem like so.

In the end, as Uncle Ben in the spiderman said,

"With great power must come great responsibility"

Since knowledge leads to power, then come the responsibility. Knowledge demands for application. Having much knowledges without apply it to the society is useless. According to prophet Muhammad SAW, the greatest men ever is the men who could be useful for others. Then it's our call, with knowledge we can be useful for the society or be useless for them. We think, we act.

It's already more than lengthy as a blog post, but i just burst it off from my vigorous mind. I have to finish some immigration matters and more importantly finish to pack my luggage. That's it for this woke up blog post.

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For the people i care and love for the most,

Arif Nindito.